right now i am at an impasse. i feel as if someone changed the stoplight from green to red and then disappeared, leaving me in a permanent state of waiting. waiting for my life to become what i dream it will be. waiting for the magic of money to find me. waiting for prince charming…well, maybe not (i used to wonder if there really was a prince charming but not any more; now i think that there is only me). i know all this stuff about me being in charge of my life, about the law of attraction, about god watching lovingly over me, guiding me, but somehow the pilot light went out and i find myself in nowheresville. a time of static nothingness that is driving me to margaritaville, if truth be told. patience. i need to learn patience. there is a time for everything…yeah, yeah, i know that too, but i still feel chained to where i am now and i do not know where the key is that will turn that damn light green.
I hear you sister! I feel as you do. I know those things you know. I wait as you wait. I search as you search. And damn it, I’d sure like to get my hands on that key too!
I’d say it gets better, but I’m not always sure of that either.
Hold strong,
Miss D
Well old friend, I feel your pain.
Trust me – I know what it is like to be stuck in a life that seems to offer nothing – to feel as if time is passing and that real ife is what is happening for every body else.
I used to believe in fairy tales but that was wishful thinking.
Even if you find prince charming, guaranteed, he’ll have a few warts. Coaches turn back into pumpkins and you can’t get very far if you’re trying to get there wearing glass slippers.
This is from Sheryl Crow’s song Soak up the Sun –
My friend the communist
Holds meetings in his RV
I can’t afford his gas
So I’m stuck here watching TV
I don’t have digital
I don’t have diddly squat
It’s not having what you want
It’s wanting what you’ve got –
And that my dear is one of the secrets to being content with where you are.
The key to happiness comes from within.
There are a lot of things in the last almost 19 years of my life that have been beyond my control – my son’s disabilites – having to put his needs above all else – having to define my life mostly within the four walls of our home and the confines of my head.
I learned one thing above all else… action is better than inaction. If something is beyond your ability to control, accept it and do something about something you can control.
Make a list of things you can change (even if it’s just your attitute) and change them.
You need to be the catalyst of your own change and fight the spirtual inertia. The best dreams are the ones we make real.
“A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” –
— Confucius
Come see me and the horses.
It can be so hard can’t it? I feel so much of my life slips past with no meaning sometimes.
I find it is the simple things that allow me to reconnect with life – the birds and the trees.
Meditation has helped me a lot recently, and connecting with so many wonderful people online.
We know it all intellectually don’t we? But it is difficult to live it and experience it as part of our daily life.